Birthday Parties

It's almost 3AM and I can't sleep :\ I have my AP Calculus and AP Chinese test tomorrow too..

Anyways, my birthday is coming up next week and I was thinking about how usually when you're younger or around my age, people have those birthday gatherings where like 10-20 people come over to your house and eat and have fun and whatnot, but I've never really had that except one instance where I invited a friend over for my birthday in the 5th grade. But I'm talking about the bigger gatherings.

It sort of makes me sad that I've never had any of them and I actually still want one..but I feel like this year's like my last year to have one. I mean technically I can still have one for years to come...but it's just not the same and not as nostalgic. It won't be as innocent or childish (in a good way) anymore.

Well, this was just sort of something I wanted to rant about for a while now :\ I'll try to study a bit and go to bed before it really does get too late.